Saturday, April 30, 2011

April 27th, The Day That Will Forever Be A Part Of Me

I went to bed Tuesday night, April 26th, knowing we were going to have storms the next day. They didn't know exactly how it would go. They thought maybe it would turn more towards the north and we would miss out on a lot of activity. They thought we may have a tornado or two but nothing major. They didn't know what we were in for or the devastation the next morning would begin. I wasn't worried too much, turned the tv off, took my glasses off, kissed Claire's forehead and went to sleep.

I woke up when Mike came home from work, approximately 1:37 a.m. I got up kissed him and gave him a hug, then we both climbed in bed and went to sleep. Around 5:15 a.m. my dog Maggie came to my side of the bed to wake me up. At first I was a little aggravated because I had no idea what was ahead of me. She was anxious and was adamant that I put my glasses on and remove my earplugs. (yes I sleep with earplugs, if I didn't then I would never sleep. Light sleeper) I then heard the heavy rainfall and turned to my iPod to see if there was any bad weather. Flashing bright red was a tornado warning....WARNING....I then sat straight up in the bed, grabbed the remote, turned on the tv and they were telling people to seek shelter immediately. About that time the tornado sirens alarmed. I woke Mike and said "If I say to get the H E (double hockey sticks) up that means run." He was in a fog but soon realized what I was saying. We waited until that one cell passed and fell back asleep. The weather in a way slowed down.

I woke back up for the day at 8:30 am. The weather was still bad but no tornado threat....yet. I went to Wal-greens and picked up some things around 10:30 am. The clouds to the north were whitish grey while the clouds to the southwest were dark, dark grey. I quickly got home and told Mike the clouds to the south looked nasty. He was watching cartoons with Claire and reading a book. The sirens started sounding again. I turned the tv to a local news station to see what was going on. We were under not 1, not 2, but 4 tornado warnings! Who knew that was possible?! 3 were actually on the ground and 1 was headed right for our neck of the woods. It was a rain wrapped tornado which meant it wasn't easily visible. Mike continued to read his book without a budge. I franticly said "Mike are you hearing this?" "Hearing what?"...........He got up and got flashlights and other things rather quickly. We got Claire under the stairs, Mike went out back to look and I looked out the side window, nearest under the stairs. I saw it! Saw what you ask...the funnel cloud. It was swirling and it looked a little different from most other clouds. It was dark almost black and then the swirling part was a grey, dirt looking cone. I yelled for Mike and we all were under the stairs just holding tight. We breathed a little easier once it passed. We are now approaching 12 noon.

It seemed like the sirens NEVER turned off. If the ones here weren't going off they were going off the town over in any direction. It seemed like the tornadoes were taking the same paths over and over again. The weather died down again and we thought maybe the worst was behind us. We thought wrong.

Mike got dressed for work, called them and let them know that he would be a little late. He kissed Claire and I goodbye and left. We are now approaching 3 pm. The sirens start again. The weather system pulled itself together and became stronger and stronger. There were cells that had tornadoes at the front and back of them. The meteorologists were frantic and exhausted. Around 3:30 pm the news channel I was watching were on the phone with one of their own meteorologists. He lived near Moulton Alabama. There had already been a damning tornado in Cullman (40 miles south of here). I am sure that other damning tornadoes had hit as well. Anyway Gary (weather man) was telling them that the wind was picking up and he saw what looked like a wall cloud. They told him that they had reports that there was a tornado on the ground. Gary said he couldn't see a whole lot because there were trees in his view that were blocking the wall cloud. He continued to tell them what he saw and then you could hear the hysteria in his voice when he realized it was indeed a tornado and it was headed straight for his home. He quickly got off the phone. His colleagues were sitting there speechless. They tried time after time to reach him with no luck. They had to keep going though, sending out the other warnings all while worrying about colleagues and their own families.

During this time (all day) I was texting back and forth with my sister in law making sure they were safe and she the same with us. The same system that had hit the Moulton area and where Gary was living was headed straight for Decatur (where Mike works) and making its way north east towards Athens. My fingers, shaking, typed a message to Mike. I told him that a bad cell was headed for him and then moving this way. I wanted them to take cover. The desperation in the Meteorologists eyes told me this wasn't a storm to mess with. Mike wrote back "Oh My God". My sister in law was texting me at this point too. My electricity went out and flickered back on, she was trying to let me know where it was. I stayed upfront, while Claire was already tucked under the stairs along with our dog. Tension was high.

I looked out our back door and all was still. The sky was black and green. The clouds were moving ever so fast. I shut the door and walked back towards the living room. The pressure began to change. My ears started hurting. At this point I knew it was time to join Claire. I heard hail start slamming the house and the floors under me began to shake. I sent my parents a text "I am so scared. It is so loud", and then my cell service went out. The lights flickered again and then it was gone. I heard snapping and cracking. The sound of thunder that didn't stop and the sound of a freight train that had gathered speed was bearing down on us. I sat and prayed and cried. I prayed that God would keep my baby girl safe. I prayed he would give me the strength to keep her alive. I listened to her chatter and laugh at Maggies expense. I thought to myself 'Will I ever hear her beautiful voice or boisterous laughter again? Will I see her beautiful smile with her one dimple on the left side of her face? Would I ever get snuggles? Does she know exactly what she means to me? Was that the last goodbye kiss and hug I would ever get from Mike? Does Mike know exactly what he means to me? Would I ever hear him say "I love you."? Does my family know how much I love them?'. The questions continued as I listened, waited, worried and cried. The hail stopped. The loud roaring stopped. The shaking floor stopped. I let out a Big cry. I sat and hugged Claire and held Maggie. I was thankful they were still here. That my roof was still in tact. After what seemed like an eternity I emerged. I made Claire and Maggie stay. I looked out back, saw the fallen tree and realized that was the cracking and thud. I was grateful it went back instead of forward. I was thankful that our neighbors aren't in arms length. I was thankful that my small but monumental tree didn't hurt someone. Claire finally emerged and crawled into my lap on the couch. She fell asleep in my arms. Her breath was tickling my neck as she slept, mouth open. I watched out the windows, my only communication to the outside. I looked for colors, for wind or still. The clouds began to change again and the trees swayed and then stopped. I grabbed Claire and set her under the stairs. She continued to sleep. I watched and waited.

I tried to call out. I tried to text. Nothing. I sat and worried. Then I received a text from Mike. I couldn't reply but I knew he was safe. He texted again and again. I was sitting and waiting for him to call me. Finally after the 3 text and no response he called. I was so happy to hear his voice. I was so thankful my family, all 3 of us were safe. Yet it seemed bittersweet because I knew others weren't so lucky. My sister in law, who was home with her 2 children, one of which was sick with strep, was ok too. She saw the tornado and it missed them by not so much. This tornado started in a small town just south of Athens (about 2 miles or so) traveled northwest along Brownsferry Road, knocking down a major nuclear power plant, continued its way down Brownsferry and turned slightly north and traveled up Mooresville Rd (Athens) and crossed over Highway 72. I live right off Highway 72 slightly west of there and my in laws live off of Brownsferry Road slightly east of where it changed courses. The tornado has been ranked a high level EF4 (190 mph winds), 3/4 of a mile wide and traveled at approximately 60 mph.

When the electricity came back on (which we weren't expecting it to for days upon days) I was so relieved and exhausted. I called my mama and my daddy and asked them to please tell me it was over. I had taken pictures of the tail end of the last cell. I have never been so mentally and physically exhausted except for that time we were stuck on I30 in a snow storm. I threw Claire and myself in the shower. I opened a bottle of wine and poured a glass. After the day I had experienced that glass of wine never tasted better. I turned the tv on and watched in astonishment the footage that was arriving at the station. The weather man, Gary, lost his home but was ok. He was in the hospital with broken ribs and lacerations. Mike arrived home around 11 pm that night and I have never been happier to see him. We just sat together. He held Claire tight. We sat in quiet as we both reflected back on the surreal day we had just survived.

The damning pictures, interviews, videos.....show people a small part of what "April's Fury 2011" brought to so many people, towns, major cities and states. They are saying that most likely there were over 50 tornadoes in North Alabama alone. This is just my version and by no means is it the same as anyones else's. Everyone has a unique story and account of that day. Many people are homeless, unaccounted for, and lifeless. My story is nothing compared to any of them. Continued prayer is needed. The clean up efforts are in full swing and people are trying to do what they can before the next storm system moves in.

I will attach a video that was taken of the tornado that bore down close to home and some pics I took myself.








Sunday, April 10, 2011

My Family Is Pretty Amazing

Mike had his first day off in 2 weeks today. We decided to fill it to the brim (no pun intended). We got up this morning, got ready and went to Wal-Mart (aka the devil or as Claire knows it 'my favorite store') purchased a couple of fishing license's and some worms. We headed out to a nice boat landing and found us a spot. Besides the snake crawling (like a bat out of hell) and the smell of icky dead fish it was a beautiful spot. We cast our lines and lost our bait time after time. I almost lost my shoe to the water (funny story whhhhaaaa had happened was) and Claire tried to push me in said icky water. Mike was getting a tad irritable because if any of you have toddlers you know how they can be (fixate on things and will worry you to death about whatever it is they are fixated on). We actually had lots of laughs at our own expense. Not to mention an older gentleman that reminded me of my grandfather warned us 'he has killed some upper amount of bad snakes in these parts.' You really can't make these things up! When we first got there there were some true to the word southern people. The one guy (I kid you not first thing out of his mouth) "Hey did you see dat somma.....He was sumthin to rekon with". Mike could not keep a straight face. I heard him from inside the car, you know the car I was thinking of staying in. Anyway it was good times. After Mike lost 2 lures and I almost caught my child with my baited hook we decided we should rap up the fishing and head to a park.

We drove to one of Athens' parks and had lunch (I had packed a picnic). We played and went down slides and walked across tar bridges and smacked our heads a time or 2. The ice cream truck came through (what a place to do business for them guys, all 'the i want ice cream mama or daddy.' Thanks.) Thank goodness our child isn't really concerned with ice cream. She isn't really concerned with eating anything when there is playing involved. We stayed for a bit then decided to come home to enjoy our own back yard. Claire and I filled her pool up with very cold water. She tossed her zebra and garfield in the water (they evidently wanted to take a dip). Mike came out in his swim trunks (I'm not sure if he thought the pool was big enough for a dip). Claire's eyes lit up. She LOVES her daddy to pieces. I truly don't think she takes one second with him for granted. She has laughed, shadowed and talked him into so many things.

We brought the party inside where daddy gave her her bath and mama cooked her pizza and cookies. She has played guitar, shaken what her mama gave her (which evidently isn't any good moves), ate herself silly, and is now sitting on the couch in daddy's lap watching Robin Hood. Yes people I am truly blessed to have one AMAZING family. I thank God for days like this and the memories he is allowing us to make with our Beautiful little girl. I can not wait for more days like today.

Friday, April 8, 2011

Weight Loss Journey

I have been on the road of weight loss. It's a very long and stressful road. But by golly I got this! I decided that enough fat was enough and it had to go. I want to be around for Claire when she gets older (note: I will NOT be getting older). I was tired of being winded and sweaty (much like a pig). I wanted to avoid diabetes (the curse that had its hand upon me). I wanted to be proud of my accomplishments and above all I wanted Claire to have a good role model. So I am going to post some pics from along the way. I have lost a total of 55 pounds and counting. The first one I am third from right trying to hide. That was taken July of 2010. The last few are current and taken within the past week. No I am not starving myself and no I am not doing anything illegal. There have been rumors I am depressed or doing something that is illegal. Obviously they don't know me because when I am depressed I stuff my face with anything I can put my hands on, mainly sweets. I am happy and in a good spot so the weight is coming off. So say what you will about me but one thing you cant say is that i am obese!!!











A World Of Selfishness

Lately I have noticed I get more annoyed with people. Not so much people in general but by their actions. When did people become so selfish? When did their feelings become more important than say anyone else's? Now I am not saying that your feelings, your spouses feelings or theirs don't matter. I'm simply saying that you are not the only person on the planet that has feelings. You are entitled to your feelings and so am I. To think that someone else doesn't get hurt by your words or actions is really foolish of you or me. But how will someone know if you are upset if you don't tell them? I'm often victim of this. I will not say anything then I get more and more angry and then resentful (very deadly combo) or I will stew on it for a bit then approach the situation from a very forgiving perspective. Forgiving in that I forgive myself for being such an awful person or forgiving you if you have unintentionally hurt me. There are times that I don't say things out of respect for someone I love. I have learned lately that some people don't operate in this manner. They have no regard for what's right, for others feelings, or simply, respect.

When did people become so selfish? Or is ignorance to blame? Is it a new epidemic? Why do some people need so much attention to stroke their own ego's when really all that focus should go towards other things? Why is it when people are jealous whey are hurtful? Why should I consider your feelings when you never consider mine? Why should I always be the one that reaches out in order to have a relationship with someone?

Relationships should never be that hard. You should never sell yourself short in order to please other people. If I am to accept you for who you are shouldn't you accept me for who I am? Why am I the only person that is suppose to extend my hand? Because unless there is another extended hand my arm will eventually get tired and drop. Everyone has things going on in their life, everyone is busy but unless you make the time then there will be no time. People are human, they make mistakes. All of us do! People seem to forget the mistakes they have made when they decide to condemn the next person. I am not omitted from these things. If you make a mistake own it, and apologize. Yes you put yourself out there but what an amazing achievement. I'm sure you will sleep better too. I know it is much easier to just blame it on someone else but that's Satan tapping on your shoulder. Thank God, Jesus died for all of our sins because we ARE human.

My child is at the point in her life where she is impressionable. She learns from everyone. As parents Mike and I have decided to surround her with people who are real. What does real mean? Well, it is people who love, care, cherish, enjoy, make time for her, have feelings, play, tolerate, accept, are kind, thoughtful and forgiving. I am a work in progress my self. I need to work on a lot of these things but one thing I won't work on is an one extended hand relationships. Obviously you are the one wanting the relationship not them. In my book there is no excuse for ignoring your child, children or grandchildren, regardless the circumstance. One thing I have learned since becoming a parent is that she is the MOST important thing in my life. Yes I love Mike. I truly believe he is my soul mate but as we all know love can come and go. One thing that will NEVER change is that I am Claire's mother and Mike is Claire's father. She is our main priority all of our living life. Why? Because we chose as two loving people to have her. She did not ask us to bring her into this world. She should never be ignored because of our selfish desires. You can chose to love someone as a partner but you can never deny blood and if you do then shame on you. You may not like what they do and you might not like how they act but they are still your conscious decision to have, raise and love regardless of age.

So right now maybe I should be selfish. We are making memories with our child and if you want to be involved then great but if not (if you are too busy or angry) then that's fine too. Just don't expect her to know you or don't get jealous of the ones that do have the time. I will not beg you to have that relationship or change who I am to accommodate you. A card at birthday's, an occasional phone call or email is NOT a relationship neither is public domains.

Tomorrow is a new day and I may have a different outlook but for now this is where I am standing. If you extend your arm I may return the favor.